Lately, I've been feeling off. Not myself. Not compared to last year. I feel like I've lost my optimism, and built this fortress around me where I've only given the key to people I've known in the past. I'm not letting anyone in, nor am I letting anyone out. I'm at a stalemate with myself, and I don't know how to get out.

Where I am now, is not where I want to be. Someone take me back to my happy self last year, before all this drama, before all of these complications blew things out of proportions. I'm still wounded from the fight, even if it's been this long, but I don't want it to affect me anymore. I don't. I can't.

Please tear down my walls.

Please. I don't want it there anymore.